What If You’re Not Meant to Figure It Out?
We live in a world that glorifies knowing, where answers are the prize, and not knowing is a problem to solve. Especially for those of us who love inner work and self-exploration, this can become an endless cycle: asking, analyzing, unpacking, trying to make sense of our lives from every possible angle. And yet… what if clarity doesn’t come from solving the riddle? What if it comes from stepping outside of it?
The Trap of Infinity Loops
When you’re committed to self-inquiry, you’ll find yourself asking deeper and deeper questions. But sometimes those questions lead you right back to the beginning, not because you’re failing, but because you’ve entered what I call an infinity loop. You follow a thought. It leads to another. Then another. And eventually… you’re right back where you started. And the mind says, “Why did that happen?” So you follow that question, only to loop again. This isn’t dysfunction. It’s a natural feature of the universe itself.
Our universe is fractal built on repeating patterns that expand and contract into infinity. You can look up the Mandelbrot Set for a visual representation. The same pattern keeps opening, unfolding, revealing itself again and again, just slightly evolved, and it can also contract inward infinitely.
This is the sacred geometry of existence. The fractal.
So when you feel stuck in the same themes, the same emotions, the same questions, don’t panic. You’re not regressing. You’re deepening. You’re moving through another spiral of the same essence.
The Overwhelm of Infinite Growth
But let’s be honest, realizing that evolution never ends can feel overwhelming. If we’re always expanding, always growing, always spiraling through more… when do we get to rest? When do we get to arrive? I felt this deeply myself last summer. The sense of never-endingness felt like a weight. I wondered, “Is this what the spiritual path is? Just infinite spirals with no relief?” And then something shifted.
Beyond the Fractal: The Eternal Heart Essence
In the stillness of a Fractaline Healing meditation, I asked to be shown a different way to find a center point in all the spiraling. And what I found was the Eternal Heart Essence. The Eternal Heart Essence is not bound to the fractal patterning of this universe. It participates in the fractal, yes, but it is not of the fractal.
It’s the still point within the pattern. The infinite presence beyond the loops. The essence of you that belongs to something even larger than this universe — something that holds this universe, and many others, within it. When you touch this place, you realize you were never meant to solve your way out of anything. You were meant to remember who you are.
There Is No Wrong Path
So if you’re spiraling, looping, questioning — you’re not doing it wrong. You’re evolving, in the only way this universe knows how. But you also don’t have to stay in the loop. You can drop into your heart. You can find the stillness within the spiral. You can rest in the Eternal Heart Essence, where there is no rush, no riddle, no slippery slope.
Just presence.
Just truth.
Just home.